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Fathers and Children

the second place, I have lost all significance for you, and you tell me I am good…. It’s like a laying a wreath of flowers on the head of a corpse.’

‘Yevgeny Vassilyitch, we are not responsible …’ Anna Sergyevna began; but a gust of wind blew across, set the leaves rustling, and carried away her words. ‘Of course, you are free …’ Bazarov declared after a brief pause. Nothing more could be distinguished; the steps retreated … everything was still.

Arkady turned to Katya. She was sitting in the same position, but her head was bent still lower. ‘Katerina Sergyevna,’ he said with a shaking voice, and clasping his hands tightly together, ‘I love you for ever and irrevocably, and I love no one but you. I wanted to tell you this, to find out your opinion of me, and to ask for your hand, since I am not rich, and I feel ready for any sacrifice…. You don’t answer me? You don’t believe me? Do you think I speak lightly? But remember these last days! Surely for a long time past you must have known that everything—understand me—everything else has vanished long ago and left no trace? Look at me, say one word to me … I love … I love you … believe me!’

Katya glanced at Arkady with a bright and serious look, and after long hesitation, with the faintest smile, she said, ‘Yes.’

Arkady leapt up from the stone seat. ‘Yes! You said Yes, Katerina Sergyevna! What does that word mean? Only that I do love you, that you believe me … or … or … I daren’t go on …’

‘Yes,’ repeated Katya, and this time he understood her. He snatched her large beautiful hands, and, breathless with rapture, pressed them to his heart. He could scarcely stand on his feet, and could only repeat, ‘Katya, Katya …’ while she began weeping in a guileless way, smiling gently at her own tears. No one who has not seen those tears in the eyes of the beloved, knows yet to what a point, faint with shame and gratitude, a man may be happy on earth.

The next day, early in the morning, Anna Sergyevna sent to summon Bazarov to her boudoir, and with a forced laugh handed him a folded sheet of notepaper. It was a letter from Arkady; in it he asked for her sister’s hand.

Bazarov quickly scanned the letter, and made an effort to control himself, that he might not show the malignant feeling which was instantaneously aflame in his breast.

‘So that’s how it is,’ he commented; ‘and you, I fancy, only yesterday imagined he loved Katerina Sergyevna as a brother. What are you intending to do now?’

‘What do you advise me?’ asked Anna Sergyevna, still laughing.

‘Well, I suppose,’ answered Bazarov, also with a laugh, though he felt anything but cheerful, and had no more inclination to laugh than she had; ‘I suppose you ought to give the young people your blessing. It’s a good match in every respect; Kirsanov’s position is passable, he’s the only son, and his father’s a good-natured fellow, he won’t try to thwart him.’

Madame Odintsov walked up and down the room. By turns her face flushed and grew pale. ‘You think so,’ she said. ‘Well, I see no obstacles … I am glad for Katya … and for Arkady Nikolaevitch too. Of course, I will wait for his father’s answer. I will send him in person to him. But it turns out, you see, that I was right yesterday when I told you we were both old people…. How was it I saw nothing? That’s what amazes me!’ Anna Sergyevna laughed again, and quickly turned her head away.

‘The younger generation have grown awfully sly,’ remarked Bazarov, and he too laughed. ‘Good-bye,’ he began again after a short silence. ‘I hope you will bring the matter to the most satisfactory conclusion; and I will rejoice from a distance.’

Madame Odintsov turned quickly to him. ‘You are not going away? Why should you not stay now? Stay … it’s exciting talking to you … one seems walking on the edge of a precipice. At first one feels timid, but one gains courage as one goes on. Do stay.’

‘Thanks for the suggestion, Anna Sergyevna, and for your flattering opinion of my conversational talents. But I think I have already been moving too long in a sphere which is not my own. Flying fishes can hold out for a time in the air; but soon they must splash back into the water; allow me, too, to paddle in my own element.’

Madame Odintsov looked at Bazarov. His pale face was twitching with a bitter smile. ‘This man did love me!’ she thought, and she felt pity for him, and held out her hand to him with sympathy.

But he too understood her. ‘No!’ he said, stepping back a pace. ‘I’m a poor man, but I’ve never taken charity so far. Good-bye, and good luck to you.’

‘I am certain we are not seeing each other for the last time,’ Anna Sergyevna declared with an unconscious gesture.

‘Anything may happen!’ answered Bazarov, and he bowed and went away.

‘So you are thinking of making yourself a nest?’ he said the same day to Arkady, as he packed his box, crouching on the floor. ‘Well, it’s a capital thing. But you needn’t have been such a humbug. I expected something from you in quite another quarter. Perhaps, though, it took you by surprise yourself?’

‘I certainly didn’t expect this when I parted from you,’ answered Arkady; ‘but why are you a humbug yourself, calling it «a capital thing,» as though I didn’t know your opinion of marriage.’

‘Ah, my dear fellow,’ said Bazarov, ‘how you talk! You see what I’m doing; there seems to be an empty space in the box, and I am putting hay in; that’s how it is in the box of our life; we would stuff it up with anything rather than have a void. Don’t be offended, please; you remember, no doubt, the opinion I have always had of Katerina Sergyevna. Many a young lady’s called clever simply because she can sigh cleverly; but yours can hold her own, and, indeed, she’ll hold it so well that she’ll have you under her thumb—to be sure, though, that’s quite as it ought to be.’ He slammed the lid to, and got up from the floor. ‘And now, I say again, good-bye, for it’s useless to deceive ourselves—we are parting for good, and you know that yourself … you have acted sensibly; you’re not made for our bitter, rough, lonely existence. There’s no dash, no hate in you, but you’ve the daring of youth and the fire of youth. Your sort, you gentry, can never get beyond refined submission or refined indignation, and that’s no good. You won’t fight—and yet you fancy yourselves gallant chaps—but we mean to fight. Oh well! Our dust would get into your eyes, our mud would bespatter you, but yet you’re not up to our level, you’re admiring yourselves unconsciously, you like to abuse yourselves; but we’re sick of that—we want something else! we want to smash other people! You’re a capital fellow; but you’re a sugary, liberal snob for all that—ay volla-too, as my parent is fond of saying.’

‘You are parting from me for ever, Yevgeny,’ responded Arkady mournfully; ‘and have you nothing else to say to me?’

Bazarov scratched the back of his head. ‘Yes, Arkady, yes, I have other things to say to you, but I’m not going to say them, because that’s sentimentalism—that means, mawkishness. And you get married as soon as you can; and build your nest, and get children to your heart’s content. They’ll have the wit to be born in a better time than you and me. Aha! I see the horses are ready. Time’s up! I’ve said good-bye to every one…. What now? embracing, eh?’

Arkady flung himself on the neck of his former leader and friend, and the tears fairly gushed from his eyes.

‘That’s what comes of being young!’ Bazarov commented calmly. ‘But I rest my hopes on Katerina Sergyevna. You’ll see how quickly she’ll console you! Good-bye, brother!’ he said to Arkady when he had got into the light cart, and, pointing to a pair of jackdaws sitting side by side on the stable roof, he added, ‘That’s for you! follow that example.’

‘What does that mean?’ asked Arkady.

‘What? Are you so weak in natural history, or have you forgotten that the jackdaw is a most respectable family bird? An example to you!… Good-bye!’

The cart creaked and rolled away.

Bazarov had spoken truly. In talking that evening with Katya, Arkady completely forgot about his former teacher. He already began to follow her lead, and Katya was conscious of this, and not surprised at it. He was to set off the next day for Maryino, to see Nikolai Petrovitch. Anna Sergyevna was not disposed to put any constraint on the young people, and only on account of the proprieties did not leave them by themselves for too long together. She magnanimously kept the princess out of their way; the latter had been reduced to a state of tearful frenzy by the news of the proposed marriage. At first Anna Sergyevna was afraid the sight of their happiness might prove rather trying to herself, but it turned out quite the other way; this sight not only did not distress her, it interested her, it even softened her at last. Anna Sergyevna felt both glad and sorry at this. ‘It is clear that Bazarov was right,’ she thought; ‘it has been curiosity, nothing but curiosity, and love

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